Over the weekend, I finally hit my "I am sick and tired of being out of shape" low point. I'm not sure why - I keep looking at the calendar and realizing my goal of going on vacation and not running from the camera, sitting on the beach covered up in a mumu is slipping away.
I scheduled an appt on Saturday with a medically supervised weight loss clinic seriously 1 mile from my front door. I looked them up on the web and once I saw they support pharmaceutical HCG - I decided. I have lost and gained the same damn 10 lbs all freaking year. Enough - I don't care WHAT I have to do...I am doing this for myself. I didn't even tell my husband.
My appt was this morning. They took me through a variety of plans...it should go to show desperation that I am actually going to do daily injections of HCG. I HATE needles but I cannot keep doing what I am doing. I research weight loss methods like crazy so I knew the background behind HCG (it has been around since the 50's and is definitely not new or trendy). I guess between the requirement to be under a Doctor's care, the expense and the fact that this is HARD and requires a VERY low calorie diet (500 calories) = less popular. They said I can expect to lose between 25-35 lbs during this 30 day round. Apparently, I have the body type that generally reacts very well to HCG (i.e. pear). I honestly cannot wrap my head around losing that much weight in a month.
I know a lot of people DO not agree with this path but given that I lost a significant amount of weight about 10 years ago and kept it off for years...I know I can do it again. Once I am at goal I will draw a "line in the sand" to help keep me in check. I am not sure how many people I will even tell because at the end of the day, I feel embarrassed that I can't get my shit together on my own and that I need help.
So here's what they did today. They did a full blood workup (results to follow), weighed me, measured me, and then put me on this machine that was the most amazing thing I have seen in awhile.
After a minute or so you get one of these...for the record, this is from their website and is not my report. ;)
It shows you exactly where you fat stores are so they can accurately tell each visit where you are losing the fat and ensure you are not losing muscle. Trivia - I have a disgusting amount of fat and it says I have 7% MORE body fat % (NOT LBS) than my withings scale showed. Throat punch!
So - I got a Lipo/B12 shot and my first hcg shot today. They also gave me an appetite suppressant to use if I need it. So, here I go for a 30 day round. The original protocol supported a 40 day round but they do not allow that. I got back next Monday and will get my 23 day supply and go to daily injections. I wish I would have asked why I can't just do an injection every week when I go for a check up and I didnt think about it.
I told my husband after. He asked me why I didnt tell him and was very supportive when I told him I was embarrassed and feeling defeated since I haven't been able to do it on my own. He said "How can I best support you"...Wow. Made my day.
I feel pretty jittery today - I have done B12 shots before in support of weight loss so I expected that. Not hungry at all but made myself eat a spinach salad with 2 oz of grilled chicken.
Hindsight, I picked a crappy week to start (KICKING myself that I didnt do this last month) but I will deal. I am swinging between thoughts of excitement and that this might be the craziest thing I have ever done. Remains to be seen.
I scheduled an appt on Saturday with a medically supervised weight loss clinic seriously 1 mile from my front door. I looked them up on the web and once I saw they support pharmaceutical HCG - I decided. I have lost and gained the same damn 10 lbs all freaking year. Enough - I don't care WHAT I have to do...I am doing this for myself. I didn't even tell my husband.
My appt was this morning. They took me through a variety of plans...it should go to show desperation that I am actually going to do daily injections of HCG. I HATE needles but I cannot keep doing what I am doing. I research weight loss methods like crazy so I knew the background behind HCG (it has been around since the 50's and is definitely not new or trendy). I guess between the requirement to be under a Doctor's care, the expense and the fact that this is HARD and requires a VERY low calorie diet (500 calories) = less popular. They said I can expect to lose between 25-35 lbs during this 30 day round. Apparently, I have the body type that generally reacts very well to HCG (i.e. pear). I honestly cannot wrap my head around losing that much weight in a month.
I know a lot of people DO not agree with this path but given that I lost a significant amount of weight about 10 years ago and kept it off for years...I know I can do it again. Once I am at goal I will draw a "line in the sand" to help keep me in check. I am not sure how many people I will even tell because at the end of the day, I feel embarrassed that I can't get my shit together on my own and that I need help.
So here's what they did today. They did a full blood workup (results to follow), weighed me, measured me, and then put me on this machine that was the most amazing thing I have seen in awhile.
It shows you exactly where you fat stores are so they can accurately tell each visit where you are losing the fat and ensure you are not losing muscle. Trivia - I have a disgusting amount of fat and it says I have 7% MORE body fat % (NOT LBS) than my withings scale showed. Throat punch!
So - I got a Lipo/B12 shot and my first hcg shot today. They also gave me an appetite suppressant to use if I need it. So, here I go for a 30 day round. The original protocol supported a 40 day round but they do not allow that. I got back next Monday and will get my 23 day supply and go to daily injections. I wish I would have asked why I can't just do an injection every week when I go for a check up and I didnt think about it.
I told my husband after. He asked me why I didnt tell him and was very supportive when I told him I was embarrassed and feeling defeated since I haven't been able to do it on my own. He said "How can I best support you"...Wow. Made my day.
I feel pretty jittery today - I have done B12 shots before in support of weight loss so I expected that. Not hungry at all but made myself eat a spinach salad with 2 oz of grilled chicken.
Hindsight, I picked a crappy week to start (KICKING myself that I didnt do this last month) but I will deal. I am swinging between thoughts of excitement and that this might be the craziest thing I have ever done. Remains to be seen.
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