My how some things change!

Am on my way to a conference (for work)....typically I would hit the sky club and have a glass (or two) before boarding, then grab a carbalicious wrap before boarding.

Well, NOT today! I packed all my crap (including my trusty withings scale and HCG rx and my syringes, vitamins, fat burners, walden farms dressing, an "emergency pack" if I can't find anything to eat)....seriously worse than traveling with a toddler!

But, I went to the Skyclub (clean place to swizzle before getting on the plane). Then grabbed 2 apples, some celery and a small pack of hummus. Shoved me into my bag like a squirrel getting ready for winter!! The dude sitting next to me looked at me like I was a lunatic but whatev... Glad I have it now....I figured they'd at least have a salad. But...NO. Damn you Delta. Not a single healthy option to eat. Nice.

Side note- I was down another 1.4 this morning! Sweet!! Counting the days til I hit 20 lbs lost!!

Business Travel Stress

I am heading out to San Diego for a conference tomorrow.  Seriously kind of freaking out.

Why?

a) 4 days of seriously reduced ability to control my environment

b) an atmosphere of overindulging in food and of course adult beverages (hey, my company is Irish....it's tradition!)

c) I don't trust myself yet

I have packed my hcg (and rx to allow it and my needles) and snacks, and green tea, and lemons...if my carryon bag closed it will be a MIRACLE!

I DO NOT CHECK. E.V.E.R.

On the plus side, I have some good friends going with AND I am staying at the Hotel Del!!

Kind of super pumped about that!

Plus #2 - we have a private event at Sea World...I love me some Shamu...will take pics!

Side note - I am only down another .4 from yesterday but am losing inches like crazy.  Am going nuts shopping my closet!  So much fun!!

I will try to post from SD but no guarantees!

Epiphany!

You know moments of clarity come at the weirdest time and the weirdest of ways sometimes!

I had my weekly checkin early since I am heading out of town on Sunday for business.  I was already bummed since I am only down 1.7 this week on my scale.  Weigh in at the Dr and I am only down 1 lb on their scale.  womp womp.  Poke.me.in.the.eyeball.

The nurse sees the look on my face (kinda like a small girl who lost her puppy or something equally as pathetic).  

She started looking through my file and said tell me about the last few months and what you have been doing.  I tell her the readers digest - lose great for a week hit a stall for a few days and then decide pizza or pasta or something BAD looks REALLY GOOD=fall off wagon...start over.  Rinse & Repeat.

She goes...hmmm...seems like you have taught your body that if it just holds onto the weight for a few days you will quit.  Whaaahuh??  

Well, now...dammit that makes sense.  Duh!  Well, imma bout to pimp slap this metabolism and I am committed to my 31 days...it better just give it up!

I am not going to post my daily food - I figured out a way to save in on my PC (I am OCD and was posting it here so that I would be sure to have the detail when myfooddiary.com archives the detail and I only have the summary)!

Here's where I sit on VLCD12:

			Lbs Lost		Total Lost
Day 1	4/15/2013		0
Day 2	4/16/2013		-2		-2
Day 3	4/17/2013		-2.1		-4.1
Day 4	4/18/2013		-1		-5.1
Day 5	4/19/2013		-0.9		-6
Day 6	4/20/2013		-1.1		-7.1
Day 7	4/21/2013		0.3		-6.8
Day 8	4/22/2013		-0.4		-7.2
Day 9	4/23/2013		0.5		-6.7
Day 10	4/24/2013		-1.2		-7.9
Day 11	4/25/2013		-0.8		-8.7
Day 12	4/26/2013		-0.2		-8.9

YTD - on my scale, I am down 15lbs!  Yeah!!

This is on my trusty withings scale...I am down 11 on the Dr's scale.  Suddenly, I like that scale better. 

Rando thought of the day:

Another NSV Linkup!

Yes, it's that time again!!  

Love reading KatieJ's blog and joining her and Lex for the weekly NSV!!

I'm feeling great and am really in the groove with my new changes.  I don't freak out about going out to eat or feeling like I can't manage myself unless I am sequestered in my house (ok, I do but not out of control)!

I have two things that come to mind this week:

1)I actually went shopping!  For me, that sounds just ridic but I cannot tell you the last time I went shopping for clothes.  I have been wearing my fat clothes over and over and over.  When you are hating how you look and feeling like jabba the hut, shopping sucks ass.  No.fun.whatsoever.  I bought several tops that I knew I could still wear when I get 20+ lbs smaller and a maxi dress at the Gap that was freaking on sale!!  $23!  Have no idea why it is $55 on sale online but whatev...this dress is like wearing your pj's but great when working at home or slepping on the weekend!

2)I have an amazing sense of self control right now...I have had a few glasses of wine but I don't feel like I want to have another...ok, and maybe another.  I realize this makes me sound like a total alcoholic BUT I have routinely been having 2-3 glasses of wine and not even thinking about it.  Same goes with food.  I went out for dinner with my parents and had my cup of soup and side salad and felt fine.  UNTIL, they ordered QUESO AND CHIPS!  Are you shitting me right now?  I almost throat punched my husband.  But, I did not eat a single chip.  Queso is my kyptonite.  Just sayin.

Have a great week!

Get your crazy under control

Is it bad if one of your friends and said "You seriously need to get your crazy under control" when I shared my new diet "scheme"....I wouldn't have mentioned it save for the fact that I look really odd with what I am eating...it is all healthy but decidedly different than most!  :-)

Haven't decided how I feel about that quite yet (if anything!) but on I go.  I committed to the 30 days and I am not looking back!  I have no idea if it worked or what, but I did a detox bath last night before I went to bed.  It was amazeballs and I slept like a baby...felt GREAT when I woke up!

Yesterday looked like:

Results VLCD D9 = -1.2lbs - 

Total - -7.9 Lost

YTD Loss = 13.9lbs

I stabbed myself...on purpose....

Today was the first day I had to put on the big girl panties and inject myself. Can you say skerrd shitless?  I was but - I did it!  Ended up being totally no big deal...I have enough of abdominal fat that I can grab it and pinch it...when that goes....uhhh....problem.  Anyways, I am feeling pretty proud of myself!  I am a total needle-phob so that shows my commitment (or new level of insanity!)

Interestingly, I have told VERY few people what I am doing.  Chalk it up to not wanting them to judge my level of cray or not wanting people to know if I fail...I dunno.  Anyways, it's kinda my personal secret right now.  :-)  

Yesterday looked like:

Results VLCD D8 = +.5lbs - WTF!?!

Total - -6.7 Lost

YTD Loss = 12.7lbs

I felt sooooo sure that I was down again but apparently I am in a mini stall...was supposed to have TOM Sunday but no.  I have been perfectly sitting in my calorie range so after today, I will whack my guilty pleasure of one glass of wine with dinner.  The nurse said it would be no problem but that is the ONLY thing it could be if tomorrow doesnt shake loose.

Sticking to the plan even if the scale pimped slapped me today.  I can certainly tell in my clothes the inches are coming off...the pants I could not button and breathe a week ago Thursday are more than comfy and loose in the waist.

Onward!

HCG VLCD Day 7 & Week 1 Recap

Happy Monday!!  I was super pumped to get up and head back to the Dr for my weekly checkup!

But yesterday looked like:

I weighed before I went and it showed:

Results VLCD D7 = -.4lbs

Total - -7.2 Lost

YTD Loss = 13.2lbs

...not what I had hoped for but hey, I will take it!  I would typically gain several lbs after eating and drinking with reckless abandon!!  But, overall I felt very much in control and not too tempted on anything except indulging in adult beverages when everyone else was.  I caved but didnt blow of the rails! Success!

Anyhoo, on to the Dr.  They reviewed my blood work up - all was good except my platelet count was high (have been fighting off a cold).  My cholesterol was a little high as well - perplexed me since I have NEVER had that but 215 was not too ridiculous...They will check everything again at the one month mark.

Weighed in there and they showed a 9lb loss.  Whaaaa???  I don't get it but there scale is surely better than mine (or we will just say that!).  It is a contraption that looks like it weighs 100lbs so we will go with that!

Got my B12 shot and my supply of injectible HCG for the next 23 days.  Little nervous about that but am so happy with how I am doing thus far!

Looking forward to a great week!